Andrias Yose

      so far i’ve used 调虎离山 strategy to lure the real face. gotcha!      
      someone’s trying to use this strategies 笑里藏刀,  顺手牵羊, and 釜底抽薪. partially directed toward me.
      will wait for a while, before i make my move. i can still suffer a few more hits.

      (note: this is in reference to playing romance of the three kingdoms offline version with my cousins. sneaky little brats, forming alliances and distracting me. and then attacking my rear when i was so busy working. ::grumble grumble grumble::)

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Andrias Y.
June 30, 2006

     without opening your door,

     you can open your heart to the world.

     without looking out through your window,

     you can see the true essence of the Way.

     the more you know,

     the less you understand.

     the wise arrives without leaving,

     recognizes the true nature without looking,

     and achieve without exerting.

          不出戶，知天下﹔不窺牖，見天道。

          其出彌遠，其知彌少。

          是以聖人不行而知，不見而明，不為而成。

                                                  四十七章

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      6 minutes and 3 days to d-day. 142 pages down the road, fifty or so more to go. rage against the machine’s calm like like a bomb’s runnin’, 2nd freakin’ bottle of nescafé. 3 lines in a blog, already 3 minutes gone by, how time flies…

      andy lau’s 今天 came next, a lyric or 2 caught my attention, and they went, "前途漫漫任我闯 … 那些不变的风霜 早就无所谓 累也不说累…" (and they read, qian2 tu2 man4 man4 ren4 wo3 chuang3 … na3 xie1 bu4 bian4 de5 feng1 shuang1, zhao3 jiu4 wu2 suo3 wei4, lei4 ye3 bu4 shuo1 lei4). and suddenly, it was 3 minutes past midnite, and paul oakenfeld’s dread rock fills the silence…

      past midnite, british petroleum’s tangguh oil and gas block on my table…

      *sigh* 天下皆知美之為美，斯惡已… (read: tian1 xia4 jie1 zhi1 mei3 zhi1 wei2 mei3, si1 e4 yi3)

      and wadda heQ am i wasting my time in an insitu? back to work, back to work, then i can have a long, long sleep by wednesday nite!

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Andrias Y.

June 26, 2006

                  颇为未虚伪虚的之士 - 小游
                  (read: po3 wei2 wei4 xu1 wei4 xu1 de5 zhi1 shi4 - xiao3 you2)
      cool. hahahahahaha. those mixed words just came up to my mind a few minutes ago. was wondering for a while how i could use the words.
      literally, it means, verily not the hypocrite and vain type of person.
      小游 (read: xiao3 you2) is another one of my nicknames. a nice and kind old lady used to call me by that nickname. initially, i didn’t like it that much. but it kinda grow on me.
      i’m now wondering whether i can write the following…
                  若有伟忧，(ruo4 you3 wei3 you1)
                  或有尤堆在小游自身, (huo4 you3 you2 dui1 zai4  xiao3 you2 zi4 shen1)
                  小游自嘲的变革乌有。 (xiao3 you2 zi4 chao2 de5 bian4 ge2 wu1 rou3)
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Andrias Y.
June 25, 2006

                  似为知是非德
                  是否明智是非也？

                  似为不知是非德
                  是否无知是非也？

                                    note: i don’t know whether someone else wrote this before me. so don’t accuse me of plagiarism, ‘coz i wrote this as it comes. some words popped in my mind, and i try to mix those words into something i can comprehend. whether some words came from residual memory after reading some texts from the past, i do not have an answer. but, if someone else before me wrote those exact words and lines, direct me, so i may learn to correct whatever mistake i may have accidentally did.

                                    六月二十五日, 2006年

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                  知之为知之
                  不知为不知
                  是知
                                    - 孔子

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                  路是脚踏出来的，历史是人写出来的。人的每一步行动都在书写自己的历史。(吉鸿
昌)

                  人生的价值，并不是用时间，而是用深度去衡量的。 (列夫托尔斯泰)

                  生活就是战斗。 (柯罗连科)

                  当一个人用工作去迎接光明，光明很快就会来照耀著他。 (冯学峰)

      a few cool sites and stuffs i want to recommend. help me quite a deal when i do my work, or for non-work stuffs:

• http://world-map.perbang.dk/  (pretty cool map of the world)
• http://cybermap.cbn.net.id/index.php (map about Indonesia etc.)
• http://www.wikipedia.org/ (pretty ok encyclopedia)
• http://www.sederet.com/ (download the program ’sederet browser,’ online english-indonesia, indonesia-english dictionary, pretty good)
• http://dictionary.reference.com/ (i use this one quite alot, online english-english dictionary)
• http://thesaurus.reference.com/ (my #2 favourite site; i don’t have a #1 favourite site)
• http://zhongen.com/ (pretty ok site to learn about Chinese language, etc.)
• http://www.setneg.ri.go.id/ (Indonesia’s State Secretariat)

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Andrias Y.

June 25, 2006

      darn frustrating! can’t find the lyric to 落大雨 - 你的样子!

      if someone out there has it, please send it to my e-mail (see: My Profile). or send me a message with the lyric!

      while i was browsing, the words, "小混蛋" crossed to my mind. It reads xiao3 hun4 dan4, translating to little brat or little jerk. made me chuckle.

      back when i worked in a fastfood restaurant several years ago, i liked to tease the middle-aged drivers from China. there was one who used to call me "小混蛋."

      i wonder how they are doing nowadays. one of them enjoyed practicing "气功," (qi4 gong1), a kinda breathing exercise. pretty nice guys, both of ‘em.

      both worked as fast-food deliverers, while their wives pursued their PhD. It was a trade-off or selfless sacrifice. the two guys felt that they are too old to learn English properly, and too old to get the green cards. so husbands and wives had lengthy discussions to decide the better way out.

      a better life, that’s all they were asking. especially for their children.

      lately, i’ve begun missing my college years… and i’m listening to west life’s "walk away" right now, b4 that was "elegi besok pagi" by ebiet g. ade.

      gotta get back to my final project. 4 1/2 days left to d-day. something’s tingling under my skin. haha!

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Andrias Y.

June 24, 2006

sayap yang tersobek ini
membuahkan luka jahitan seorang kelana

dan teringatlah sebuah carita
yang berisikan seorang figur seorang punggawa duda
dan seorang begawan nan baheula
menggemari kelakaran budi yang lara

"sini ku jahit kan, kan ku jahit kan
    luka mu - yang menganga,"
ucapnya merdu penuh dengan ketulusan tulusnya.

"hai, paketu," sahutnya lembut,
     dengan kesungguhan,
"jahit-lah sepuas diri mu, bak
t’gak diantara bebatuan karang yang terjal;
     si pembawa maut, dan kau pun tak
     kan menyadari,  kan kehadiran - ia,
     sang penebar dusta."
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Andrias Y.
June 21, 2006

t’lah ku tatap mata sang menara,
yang berdiri diatas rerumputan zamrud,
jauh dari de-debuan yang melekat di kening ku;

t’lah pula ku lambaikan sebutir kepolosan nirmala,
setetes rasa yang bertuan-kan konstanta gravitasia,
    tak ternodakan hina,
    tak terbuih dengan zinah,
yang mungkin tak pernah berarti bagi mu,
    tetapi tak ternilai kesejukannya bagi diri ku

ketika ku tatap nyata hembusan sang rembulan - maya,
ditengah lautan tombak tajam yang menyayat raga,
bermandikan percikan sinar gontai yang menghantui…
    (maka) setiap derap langkah kaki ku - pun
    kan melengking ditengah keheningan malam

"kapankah Kau kan perbolehkan aku pulang ke rumah-Mu?"
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ay
June 21, 2006

      i am near spent.
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Andrias Y.
June 20, 2006