Archive for June, 2007

taste the taste of women

Wednesday, June 27th, 2007

     taste the tastes of women… interesting thought that just crossed my mind.

     there is really just a very thin layer that separates between virtuosity and shamelessness. two sides of the same coin. but that ain’t something infinitely women, men do have that inclination as well.

     i don’t know whether it’s a boon or curse on my part. but whence in my adolescence, i already made a promise to myself. other men may fall easily enamoured with the beauty of a woman’s face and body, but i will not.

     then over the past 1 year or so… well, this actually began july 2006 to the present date. i began to develop this perception that women ain’t really mysterious at all. one of the allures of a woman is her mysterious nature, so says some dead men. but the more i grew acquainted with women, the more i felt that women don’t need to be loved or liked because they’re mysterious.

     ’stead, respecting a woman is much more important. treating her as a human bein’. someone with some decency and self-worth. that, i think is much more important.

     and i ain’t just sayin’ this for the sake of gainin’ favor from the women kind. ain’t necessary, and don’t need that at all.

     i’m sayin’ this from my own experiences. limited my experiences may be, but much much more then when i began to take this steps back in that argumentatively fateful July of 2006.

     whether she is a famous professional, a middle-manager, a poor fella’, a child, a masseuse, or even a prostitute, an individual woman deserves at least a descent recognition and respect. what a woman may do or may not do, she has her own reason/s. same like just about anybody else, including men.

     think you that most, if not all, woman that sells her body for a man’s brief moment of pleasure is really proud of what she’s doin’? you take that lens away for a moment, you see her as a human being, as an individual, as someone else’s sister and daughter, maybe someone else’s mother and lover.

     life can be biatch as it is already, so why make things worse for ‘em. some or many men treat a woman that trades her body for money as a thing, an object. nothing more. a whim for man’s lusts. these men are demaning not women, not men, but they demean the essence of the very existence of being born as a human being, and as an individual.

     my heart bleeds and cries often enough as it is.

     on my part, i do what i can do.

     one moment at a time.

     what basic decency, what basic self-respect and self-worth that a woman i encounter deserves, i acknowledge. that’s the very least i can do. that’s where i begin.

     at times i wish i have a great amount of money, or a great amount of power. a semi-god, perhaps. i could provide safe homes, some jobs and trainings. food and clothing. education and care. simple stuffs that broken children, men and women, could definitely benefit from.

     mind u me that i ain’t interested in rehabilitation.

     options. have knowledge that there are other options. another chance. an opportunity. to lead a life knowing full well his/her basic rights for freedom and happiness.

     i do what i can. in my own way. small little acts that hopefully touch a scarred soul here and there along the way. to let that individual realize, that there is a light in that long, dark, and cold tunnel s/he has been walking for quite a while.

     i ain’t no saint. i ain’t no great hero. i am a simple person, doing simple things. i start from the small things in life.

places faces

Wednesday, June 27th, 2007

     can’t remember the title of the song, but it’s a song sang by michael jackson, and there are lyrics sayin’ "…places faces…" BOOM! suddenly remembered the title of the song… "Black & White."

     da 1st 6 months of 2007, i’ve visited Sukabumi, Bandung, Bogor, Batam, Tapanuli, Semarang, Medan. In others, the western region of Indonesia.

     seen different faces of Indonesia, different environment and people. Tapanuli, thus far, struck me as most interesting. the characteristics of this region are definitely strong. i love places with their own unique characteristics. for that reason, i also strongly dislike Batam.

     Batam, in my own personal opinion, ain’t worth a sh*t ‘coz that place has no unique characteristics. well, there are characteristics, but ain’t unique and special.

     Batam for me felt more like an island with floating characteristics. it is tryin’ to define and shape itself, but it’s doing a lousy job at it. floating… floating… floating…

     another thing that struck me as different about Batam is the sense of its lawlessness and wildness. we called it ‘liar’ in Indonesian language for wild or untamed. i tend to define ‘liar’ in Batam as shapeless and shifting lawlessness. i don’t like it. if this is gonna be the next Singapore or 1/2 similar to Singapore, i say Batam really got a whole lotta catchin’ up to do.

     perhaps some years down da road, Batam will have its own unique characteristics. but until then, it ain’t gonna be a place I wanna visit again unless out of necessity (job/business related, or transit to Singapore).

     i definitely wanna visit Sumbawa, Lombok, East Kalimantan, Manado, Makassar, Jambi, Lampung, Ambon, and Papua. i’ve been to Jambi and Lampung before, many years ago, but the only thing that stuck in my mind was this tradionally man-made wooden bridge, that’s really long. why do i still remember the bridge? ‘coz my memory recalled someone said that they used the chopped-off head of young children as offerings to the river spirits or somethin’ like that. well, as a child that scared the sh*t out of me. hahaha. but.. come to think about it, maybe that bridge ain’t located in Lampung/Jambi, maybe Bangka-Belitung.

asian jay leno

Monday, June 11th, 2007

      uploaded 3 new pictures. morphed it with the PhotoDJ software equipped with my Sony Ericsson K610i cell phone.

      the picture i set as primary is the Asian Jay Leno version. ::chuckle::

everything must have an end

Monday, June 4th, 2007

      it began june 2006, it ends june 2007.

      ^_^      

a simple thanks

Monday, June 4th, 2007

      i give my thanks to three persons the first half of 2007. one male, two females.

      the male, for his friendship, though he’s way much older than i.

      the females, for being who they are, though younger than i, through them two parts of me were resuscitated.